atm: have my 3U study stuff in front of me but i cant seem to pick up a pen or have the heart to study.. so i thought id try to blog away this unmotivating-ness;


"i wish yu hear fuckl this girls haven nithing on u why is Jt so hard??" hahah. thanks for your lol illegible text tard. im pretty sure i know what you were trying to say even if you dont but i wont jump to any conclusions.

what was, what is and what will be..

so yesterday after sleeping so much after school i couldnt sleep at night. was pretty gay cause i went to bed and i jss lied there. so i played solitaire ahaha and then read some of my book. i felt tired after that but still couldnt sleep. so frustrating not being able to fall asleep. so as a consequence i started thinking a lot..

waiting, waiting.. but what am i waiting for? a chance, a day, a hope, a faith? its one trivial after another. its like those maths questions in the catholic papers. you spend a long time and finally solve it only to hit another brick wall with the next question. your brain gets tired, you feel sick of it and hopeless at solving the question and want to give it up and move on to playing.
what makes me think i can solve the question this time?
what if theres no answer to this.. and its just a trick...
my heart is constantly frowning
just the way you frown when thinking
real hard at the question.

i couldnt care less.. yet it means the world to me
i dont see it that way.. yet i know it from every angle
i cant take anymore.. yet i shoulder some more
i dont want to keep going.. yet i want to head off to forever
i dont want to feel that way.. but im loving it







sigh. why?

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